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Fasting is a weird thing that Jesus modeled for His followers. It’s one thing to forgo something I just really enjoy, like sugar or TV. But to give up all food?! That’s crazy, right? I don’t just want to eat, I need to eat to survive. Don’t I?

And yet, God asks His people to fast from time to time. And He led the Israelites into the wilderness where He allowed them to go hungry for a little while. Why?

“He humbled you by letting you go hungry; then he gave you manna to eat, which you and your ancestors had not known, so that you might learn that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord.” (Deuteronomy‬ ‭8‬:‭3,‬ ‭CSB)

God doesn’t want me to go hungry. His purpose is not that I suffer. The purpose, clearly stated in Deuteronomy, is humility. When I lack humility, that is the time to fast. When I think I have control of things and don’t need God, that’s when it’s time to fast. When I’m worried about things, which means I’m not relying on God, that’s the time to fast and remember God is in control, loves me, and will provide.

When Jesus fasted in the desert for 40 days and nights, the devil didn’t tempt Jesus by handing Him a loaf of bread. The devil tempted Jesus to use His power to turn the stones to bread. He tempted Jesus to take control, to grab the reigns from God. He tempted Him with pride and power and self-reliance.

But Jesus chose humility.

“He answered, ‘It is written: Man must not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’” (Matthew‬ ‭4‬:‭4‬, ‭CSB)‬‬

Jesus knew that bread is worthless without God, but with God, all His needs are met.

Dear God,

Forgive me for tending to rely on my own strength, wisdom, and resources instead of yours. Show me how to reset my priorities and rely only on you for even my basic needs. Thank you for loving me so much that you want to take care of me.

My nephew went off to college for the first time last fall, and I remember hoping he wouldn’t be hurt or confused or overwhelmed. Going out into “the world” is eye-opening, to say the least.

He is a thoughtful, caring, considerate, and fun-loving person, and I was praying that those qualities would remain intact. Away from his tight-knit family, he would be vulnerable to all manner of temptations and attacks, manipulations and deceptions. He would also be presented with countless new ideas and values, some beautiful and some ugly.

As an aunt, I felt extra powerless. I counted on the strength of his character and the wisdom his loving parents had instilled in him.

“And I pray this: that your love will keep on growing in knowledge and every kind of discernment, so that you may approve the things that are superior and may be pure and blameless in the day of Christ,” (Philippians‬ ‭1‬:‭9‬-‭10,‬ ‭CSB‬‬)

The same kinds of feelings plagued Paul when he left a newly planted church. They were vulnerable to temptations, attacks, manipulations and deceptions. That’s why he wrote letters to them when he was unable to visit. He reminded them of the truth, of God’s priorities and values. He helped them evaluate every idea and discern whether it belonged in God’s kingdom or not.

I need that kind of reminder, too. Daily. I am vulnerable to attacks, temptations, manipulations, and deceptions. I may not recognize them as such, but they bombard me constantly. Although I am more experienced than my nephew, I am just as vulnerable. So I return again and again to God’s word to set me straight, to return me to love.

Dear God,

Thank you for your word. Thank you for its availability. Remind me of my vulnerability and my need to constantly reset my priorities. Protect me from satan’s attempts to corrupt my values or lower my standards. Love is always the goal.

Sometimes I don’t take my concerns to God because they seem trivial compared with the trouble other people are going through. Undoubtedly, someone somewhere has something worse going on in their life than whatever is going on in mine. In fact, maybe everyone I see at the grocery store or the library or the gas station has bigger problems than I do today. A friend and I often say, “Everyone’s got something,” meaning that my problems are not unique or extraordinary. It helps me to keep things in perspective and to give rude people the benefit of the doubt.

That’s not to say there haven’t been times in my life that did feel desperate or hopeless or catastrophic. There definitely have been. And there will be more. It’s just not the norm, thank God.

I have come to God in those desperate, hopeless times. And God has been there for me with love, comfort, and encouragement.

But God wants me to come to Him with my less catastrophic problems as well. He wants to be my first resort, not my last one. He wants me to talk to Him about every little thing that troubles and distracts me. When I am filled with anxiety about a trip I have to take, when I am suffering from a bad headache, or when I am unable to sleep for no apparent reason, I should come to Him for help and comfort.

“When I am filled with cares, your comfort brings me joy.” (Psalms‬ ‭94‬:‭19,‬ ‭CSB‬‬)

The verse doesn’t say anything about my cares needing to be important or exceptional or worthy of His time. Whatever my cares are, God wants me to come to Him for comfort and joy.

Dear God,

Thank you for your interest in comforting me when I am distressed. I’m amazed at your love and care for me. Help me to remember to come to you first and to come to you with everything.

What impossible things can you think of? Winning the lottery?World peace? Healing a loved one’s mental illness?

There are plenty of impossible things that I wish for. And God, in His infinite power, can accomplish them all.

“For nothing will be impossible with God.” (Luke‬ ‭1‬:‭37,‬ ‭CSB‬‬)

The obvious question then is why doesn’t He? Why doesn’t He cause peace to settle on the world? Why doesn’t He send me the winning lottery ticket? Why hasn’t He cured my sister’s depression?

Along with infinite power, God also has infinite wisdom and love. He gave us free will and allows us to learn from our choices and the consequences of them. Occasionally He will step in and do the impossible, but only when doing so is wise and loving.

That’s only part of the answer though. The rest lies in God’s sovereignty. He has His plan. It’s bigger than me and will outlast me. And He reveals only what I need to know.

Fortunately, God is good. He is Love. So His plan is perfect for me, for you, and for everyone. It may not feel like it, in the same way a child’s discipline does not feel like love, but I, like the child, can’t see the whole picture. I can’t understand the why. But I don’t need to. I just need to trust in God’s goodness and love, and have hope.

Dear God,

I don’t understand why you don’t solve all my problems. But I trust in your goodness, your love, and your ultimate plan for my life and for the world. Please forgive my impatience and grumbling. Fill me instead with joy for all the blessings you provide every day and hope for the future.

God is mysterious.

If He weren’t mysterious, would I want Him as my God? If I could easily understand everything about Him, He wouldn’t be greater than me. What would there be to worship? There would be no glory, no majesty, and no faith required.

But God is mysterious. I don’t understand Him. I don’t understand where He is, how He exists, or how He can be outside of time. I don’t know why He created me, why He loves me, or why He cares one little bit about me and my little life. I don’t understand His holiness, why He allows evil to exist, or why He had to send Jesus to save me from my sin. It’s all so mysterious.

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning.” (John‬ ‭1‬:‭1‬-‭2,‬ ‭CSB)‬‬

I definitely don’t understand the Trinity or how Jesus, the Word, could be both God and with God in the beginning. And when was the beginning for that matter?

“For as heaven is higher than earth, so my ways are higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah‬ ‭55‬:‭9‬, ‭CSB‬‬)

In the end, I’m glad God is so mysterious. I’m glad He is so far beyond my ability to comprehend. I’m glad He is great and omniscient and omnipotent. But most of all, I’m glad this mighty and mysterious being loves me.

Dear God,

I will never understand all that you are. At least, not in this life. Thank you for revealing the marvelous things about you that I need to know. Thank you especially for your love and mercy and caring about little old me.

I’ve always loved the Psalms. They are so expressive and lyrical. I appreciate elegant speech and clever wording, especially when it comes to praising God. Words often fail me here because God is inexplicable. He is beyond explanation or description. But the writers of Psalms do a great job. Here is a favorite verse:

“From the rising of the sun to its setting, let the name of the Lord be praised.” (Psalms‬ ‭113‬:‭3,‬ ‭CSB‬‬)

We are called to praise God all day long, every day. And I am eager to do so because He is so vast and loving and holy and creative and powerful and merciful and good and beautiful. Like I said, I’m no poet. So I turn to the Psalms for inspiration. Reading them reminds me of His glory as much as any words can.

“Let the fields and everything in them celebrate. Then all the trees of the forest will shout for joy before the Lord, for He is coming.” (Psalms‬ ‭96‬:‭12‬-‭13a,‬ ‭CSB‬‬)

Dear Lord,

I want to praise you in a way that is worthy of your glory, but that bar is so high. Thank you for providing beautiful words to inspire my praise of you. I’m glad you can hear my heart of praise when my words fall short.

Who would you like to have dinner with? It can be anyone, living or dead.

That is a good first date question because it’s a good way to learn something about a stranger’s values and interests. It’s not just who they would like to meet, but who they’d like to spend the dedicated and focused time of sharing a meal with. Would it be Abraham Lincoln? Mother Teresa? Your dad?

It’s really nice to have someone’s undivided attention. Especially if it’s someone you admire, respect, or want to learn from or get to know.

I’m an introvert so don’t entertain often. But I understand the value of sharing meals with interesting and influential people. There’s something special about sitting down at a table together for a length of time, doing something enjoyable and somewhat celebratory like eating. Besides eating, there’s nothing to do but talk.

“See! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me.” (Revelation‬ ‭3‬:‭20‬, ‭CSB)‬‬

What a tremendous offer from God! He’s inviting Himself to my house to sit down at my table and share a pizza with me. Just a chat with God. Please come on in!

Dear God,

Thank you for this beautiful promise to come spend time with me in this casual and comforting way. I would love to have you over for a meal. For every meal. I have a lot of questions for you. And I’m sure you have some things to say to me as well.

Which is worse: murder or lying? In human society, murder is much worse. I’d go to prison for it. But lying is so commonplace that we seem happy to elect someone to lead us no matter how flagrantly or frequently they lie.

In God’s kingdom these two sins are equal. The punishment is exactly the same: death.

To God, all sin is unbearable. Every single command of His must be obeyed perfectly, or I am sentenced to death. That means the very first time I lied or disrespected my parents or took the Lord’s name in vain or murdered someone, I was deemed ineligible to enter God’s kingdom.

Fortunately God found a way to wash me clean of all my many, many ugly sins. He sent Jesus. Jesus did live a life free from sin, but then died in my place. This freed me from the onus of those commands of God. I no longer need to fret about this sin or that sin, what the 10 Commandments say or any of the other 600 or so laws in the Bible. Not only did Jesus fulfill the law for me, He simplified my task going forward.

“For the whole law is fulfilled in one statement: Love your neighbor as yourself.” (Galatians‬ ‭5‬:‭14‬, ‭CSB‬‬)

To please God, I just need to focus on loving. Jesus’s forgiving sacrifice takes care of the rest.

Dear God,

I am so grateful for your mercy that saves me from my deserved punishment. I am also so thankful that the only law I need to concern myself with, because of Jesus, is the beautiful simplicity of loving others. Teach me how to succeed in that today.

I am fortunate that when I adopted my dog, Rocky, he hadn’t had much experience being indoors. Therefore, it wasn’t difficult to train him to stay off my furniture.

Then I had a friend keep him at her house for a week while I was out of town. My friend had two dogs of her own and her policy regarding dogs on furniture was laxer than mine. When I brought Rocky home, he had learned something new: the couch was more comfortable than the floor. The couch had always been more comfortable, but it wasn’t until he saw the other dogs enjoying the couch that he decided to imitate them.

We all learn new behaviors by observing others. We learn our first language, complete with dialects and affectations, by imitating our parents. We improve in sports by watching professionals and practicing their techniques. We prefer a how-to video to an instruction manual because imitation is such an easy way to learn. And tobacco companies know the best marketing for their products is simply to show good-looking, interesting people smoking in the TV shows and movies we watch.

“Therefore, be imitators of God, as dearly loved children, and walk in love….” (Ephesians‬ ‭5‬:‭1‬-‭2a,‬ ‭CSB)‬‬

I can absorb both good and bad behaviors by observing others. So I must be intentional about who I watch and admire, who I spend time with, and who I listen to most. Jesus came to earth to model life and love for us. To please God, I don’t need to look any farther.

Dear God,

Thank you for sending Jesus to show us how to live and how to please you. Reveal behaviors and people in my life that I should not be imitating. Help me to imitate you instead by remembering your love for me and loving others in all situations.

When old folks get together the subject of physical ailments usually comes up. Back aches, bad knees, planned surgeries, cancers, remissions, and medications. All are discussed to the point that it seems a bit like bragging. Who has the worst problem? Who’s in the worst pain?

It’s not a contest I want to win.

I’ve been through a lot physically as well. I’m not even an old-timer yet. But even in middle age, I know now that what doesn’t kill me does indeed make me stronger. Maybe not physically, but emotionally and spiritually.

“And not only that, but we also boast in our afflictions, because we know that affliction produces endurance, endurance produces proven character, and proven character produces hope. This hope will not disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” (Romans‬ ‭5‬:‭3‬-‭5,‬ ‭CSB)‬‬

I was really shaken when I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. But God provided and continues to provide what I need to deal with that condition. So, when I was diagnosed six years later with breast cancer, I had hope. I knew God, who never changes, still loved me and would provide again. He did. Two years after that when I was diagnosed with a brain tumor, my hope was even more solid.

No one wants pain in their life, but unfortunately, it’s going to visit everyone. It’s a fact of being mortal in this fallen world. However, because of God’s love I can be sure of coming out the other side with a deeper knowledge of who He is and how much He loves me.

Dear God,

Thank you for showing how faithful you are through all my physical ailments, big and small. I know you are always with me and your perfect plan cannot be thwarted. Teach me to continue to trust you and put my hope in you no matter how things appear.