It’s human nature to try to shirk apologies. An easy example can be found with kids on the playground. When asked to apologize to another child they have hurt, most children will begin rationalizing. Then they will blame the victim or the circumstances or the wind direction — anything else. Finally, reluctantly, an insincere apology may be muttered.

We adults aren’t much better. We avoid apologies at all cost because even the semblance of an apology means accepting all the blame, facing our flaws. We act like children in our marriages, our friendships, politics, at work, and even with God. We rationalize and look for someone or something else to blame.

God won’t put up with it forever.

“Even now — this is the Lord’s declaration — turn to me with all your heart, with fasting, weeping, and mourning. Tear your hearts, not just your clothes, and return to the Lord your God. For he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, abounding in faithful love, and he relents from sending disaster.” (Joel‬ ‭2‬:‭12‬-‭13‬, ‭CSB‬‬)

God knows what is in my heart. He knows everything that I have to apologize for. He knows exactly who to blame and why.

But even so, no matter what I’ve done, all He wants is a sincere apology. It’s not hard. Really. It’s simple. I’m just so proud, so reluctant, too ashamed to admit my mistakes….

Dear God,

I am truly sorry.