Ok, I don’t really want to write about this, but it’s what I’m being told. And I’ve been wrestling with it my whole life.
I am female. I was born that way and don’t have any desire to change that. However, the Bible says some things about women that are really hard to swallow. And I’ve had some hurtful experiences in churches regarding those ideas.
I’ve read the Bible cover to cover several times. Several different translations. And the overall sense I’ve gotten is that God is good, loving, beautiful, holy, all-powerful, all-knowing, and always here. He wants all the people He created to have a personal relationship with Him, no matter who we are. We are all created by Him, in His image.
And I’ve never been able to square that with some of the verses regarding women like where it’s says we must cover our heads or we must submit to men, not teach them, have authority over them, or even speak or ask questions.
I’ve thought about these things a lot and read various opinions about these ideas. Like I said, I’ve wrestled with it my whole life. Especially as a single woman, which I was until the age of 38. I was also the technical director of a software company and the boss of several men. A good boss. Should I have refused that job to obey God?
Or by writing this blog, am I in danger of teaching some man something?
What is right or wrong for me that is different from my brother or husband or random man on the street?
Then comes today’s verse. I heard God talking to me on this subject through it. I shouldn’t use my gut feeling or my pride or society or anything other than God’s voice to tell me what is right or wrong for me. And when I hear Him tell me something is right, or wrong, I must trust Him with all my heart. No matter how I feel or what other people say.
With everything I do, I should look to Him and obey what I know: am I being loving, am I being humble, am I being sincere and honest with myself?
If I always look to God and obey His basic commands (love, humility), I can trust Him to make my paths straight. One confident step at a time.
Dear God,
It is so hard to understand what you want from me as a woman. Why does your word seem contradictory regarding us? I know I am your child and you love me. Please guide every decision I make so that I am obedient to your word as you intend for me to live.
CamDevo 